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Hi Everyone!
I talked to my mother last night and told her that I didn't want to attend Temple and that I want to stay at CCP so that I could try to transfer to a college that I actually want to attend. The thing is now I'm doubting if I made the right decision. Like now, I feel like maybe I should just go to Temple even though I don't really want to attend. I feel like maybe I don't want to go to Temple for shallow reasons. I have this fear that I'm chasing some pipe dream in terms of the colleges that I want to attend. I'm 21 years old and I'm just going into my sophomore year. The reasons why are pretty personal. I just feel damned if I do, damned if I don't. Ever since I started college at Colgate, I have been doubting my educational decisions. I guess it's b/c school just doesn't seem fulfilling anymore. It seems like a tedious chore and it doesn't make me happy. I mean school is always somewhat tedious. However, before college, I use to enjoy school. Ever since college, I don't enjoy it at all. I pray to God to help me with my doubting and my attitude towards school. I guess I just wanted to hear some encouraging words as well.
July 19 2005, 20:28:25 UTC 6 years ago
as far as chasing dreams go, i definitely felt that way about applying to the college i'm now transferring to (i got wait-listed when i applied as a high schooler, and then no one got taken off the wait-list that year, i was devastated, etc, and the transfer process was so tedious and i was so scared i wouldn't get in the second time around...). but if it's really a dream, it's worth chasing, right?
do you think that you'd find education fulfilling and that you'd enjoy school again at the colleges you're trying to transfer to? because if the answer is yes, then it's totally worth the effort and taking the risk.
good luck. i wish you the best.
July 19 2005, 23:57:16 UTC 6 years ago
There's nothing wrong with being 21 and still not transferring. People are at all sorts of life stages. I had to go to school part time for awhile, mostly financial and some personal reasons, and this means I'll transfer INTO my university when I'm 23. You're getting a degree! It doesn't matter sooner vs. later, only whether or not you DO.
*hugs* you just sound burnt out on college. it happens to the best of us. keep praying and KNOW that you will make it through. A couple years of our life right now is nothing compared to the lifetime ahead of us.
July 28 2005, 14:06:40 UTC 6 years ago